Cindyyyyy❤

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

300th // 9:31 PM

Sooo.. I've decided to continue blogging.

http://heartzxz.blogspot.com/

iloveyou❤

Impossible // 6:50 PM

Today was full of ups and downs.

I think I was experiencing those PMSes. Sigh..

This week is the last week; I don't want it to end):

Oh, it's my 299th post for this blog. Time for a blog change/stop blogging. I'll post my decision on the last post.

iloveyou❤

Monday, November 1, 2010

A'levels Mother Tongue // 8:07 PM

Entered the school with an exceptionally nervous heart. I've got no idea why I'm so nervous actually. Lol. So.. people started entering the hall and I got even more nervous. Sitting at my seat; I could feel my hands full of sweat. Gahhhhhh. The nervousness is really engulfing me.

Just then, someone came and sat diagonally beside me and my nervousness just seem to disappear. Lol. That certain someone even said hi to me!^^ Omg. Hahahah!

So yeah. Survived the 3hour Chinese paper then went to Asian Civilisation Museum for learning journey. Reached back school at like 4plus then bus-ed to Clementi for KOI!^^ Then ate at formage; SUPERR CHEESY FRIES!:D Heh. Awesome!

Today is a VERY good day; very happy indeed(: I hope I remain happy tomorrow(: Hahahahah.

I totally don't feel like completing the Math tutorial! :/

iloveyou❤

297th // 12:48 AM

The 297th post; I'm still considering if I should continue blogging.

Hah, weird me. Tomorrow's the exam day and I'm thinking of this?! Sigh. What is wrong with me.

iloveyou❤

A'levels Chinese // 12:34 AM

Its.. 7.5 hours to Chinese A'levels Examinations. Yet I'm still here posting. Can you believe it? Gahhhh.. Spent 2 hours reading 这里很安静 but end up Zhiyi told me that it's not tested. Wtf man. Danggggg. But well, nvm. I somehow managed to chiong finish the rest of the chapters already. Gonna turn in real soon!

Please wish me all the luck that you can!! It's a 3hours paper tomorrow; I hope that I don't die. And I can't wait for the Museum trip after the paper!^^ And also koi after that(:

And oh oh oh! I watched WGM Khuntoria and Yongseo parts just now. The latest Khuntoria episode is seriously damn sweet! Gahhhhhhh. Make me wanna have a boyfriend now only :/ LOL! And made me think of bird T.T Sigh.. Oh well~ Reality is still reality, huh? It's never possible):

Gahhhhh. Okay. Shoo these thoughts aside. TOMORROW CHINESE PAPER!! T.T

iloveyou❤

Thursday, October 28, 2010

The Almighty 10S04 // 9:52 PM

I thought I was strong. But I actually ain't.

Cried twice today; of which one is due to happiness and one is due to the opposite.

I don't know what lies in front of us tomorrow, but I know we should keeping hoping. Comes what may, we are the almighty 10S04. We still have the $300 cookie house voucher to spent AS A CLASS!

I feel so useless; when all that I could do is to just encourage them. And nothing else.

iloveyou❤

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

// 11:03 PM

I wanna be alone. Just for today.

iloveyou❤

// 10:56 PM

Okay, I cried.

I feel so much like a real loser now. That.. really pained my heart.

All the feelings that I've been trying to compress, all the tears that I've been trying to hold back; I can't control them anymore.

I'm sorry..

iloveyou❤

Emotional, oh emotions. // 9:55 PM

I feel exceptionally emotional today that I kept updating my blog with new posts. And I don't like this): Dang. Alright, time to get back to Math. I'm striving for H3, so I should attempt the questions again. I'll be a good girl today(:

I shouldn't give up. Not when others are still hanging on.

And even when everyone starts to give up, I should stretch out my hand and hold on to them.

iloveyou❤

(: // 9:46 PM

For once, I am daring enough.

I didn't hesitate; I just clicked the mouse.

Perhaps, it's because I've been through so much lately that I don't want to keep my feelings unspoken anymore.

Today, God gave me all the courage that I asked for. Thank you(:

iloveyou❤

// 7:48 PM

I'm faking it so I'd appear strong. I want to put a smile on people's face. For today, at least.

Bless me with the courage; to not cry tonight.

iloveyou❤

// 7:12 PM

Today I feel so random that I started commenting on people's wall. This is so not Cindy-like. LOL! But nevermind, since this is like what. Once in a blue moon kind of thing? :D Hahahahahah(:

What if all these were just a cover, a white lie; to cover the overwhelming emptiness that is engulfing my heart? I want to let the people around me know that I love them, so much so that I can't lose them. I don't know if what I just did was a sensible thing, though. I don't know if that's enough to let them know that I love them so much. This, is what is killing me.

iloveyou❤

Smile, though it hurts. // 5:46 PM

Today, seems different..

School was as usual, and the routine for PE was the same. But somehow, it just felt different today. Sat out for PE today cause I'm still under medication and isn't fit for physical activity. Joined the class for captain's ball, though. Since I'm just supposed to stand there and catch the ball.

Standing up there on a chair, looking at my classmates running around; something seems to be striking my heart. Everyone's face was with a smile; something that I seem to have neglected in the past, something that I used to have taken for granted. Today, their smiles seem exceptionally warm, and there is this unknown feeling that is filling up my heart. It seems a little sweet, a little bitter; I don't know how to describe it.

Friday. That's when the final verdict would be out. And before the final verdict is out, we'd still keep on hoping.

I am not afraid of tomorrow, for I have seen yesterday and I love today.”
- William Allen White

iloveyou❤

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Helpless // 11:11 PM

Helpless? Seems like it.

I've got no idea how I'm supposed to face them tomorrow actually. I don't know how to react when I see them, I don't know what to say to them, I don't know what I can do for them. All that I know is that it ain't the end, and we should all keep the faith.

Faith; it used to be the word I detest the most. But now, it's all that is keeping me together. I'll put on a brave front in front of them tomorrow; I'll keep holding on to that faith. But what's bothering me is that- am I strong enough to not cry in front of them? I don't want to make them feel worse. In fact, I want to give them all the encouragement that I can.

But.. am I strong enough?

For once, please bless me with all the blessings that you can give. I want to be strong. For them.

iloveyou❤

// 1:50 PM

Can I use my birthday wish for next year in advance?

I wish that 10S04 would not part.

iloveyou❤

Keep the faith till the end // 1:47 PM

Be on your guard,

stand firm in the faith.

Be men of courage,

be strong.

- 1 Corinthians 16:13

I'll be praying for the best on Friday. Praying hard.

iloveyou❤

I'm sorry // 12:52 PM

Memories keep flooding in, especially after talking to Jasmine. I wondered; whether I had gave them a helping hand, pulling them to finish this race. But it seems that I didn't, and the feeling is beyond what words can describe.

What's the point of achieving those 'A's when there is no one there at the finishing line to share your joy with? The emptiness, is engulfing me. I wished I slower-ed my pace, I wished I could give them the help that they need, and I wished I was there for them.

When I heard the news yesterday when I was at home, I felt so helpless. I couldn't do anything, I couldn't say anything, I don't know what to do. I wished I went to school yesterday; I wanted to be there for them at least. That's like the least thing that I could do. I feel so apologetic towards them, for not being in school yesterday.

Sometimes, a word sorry just doesn't solve everything.

iloveyou❤

Faith // 11:07 AM

Faith.

I'm still holding on to that faith that things would have a change.

It's not the end; we still have till Friday.

iloveyou❤

It's a sad sad morning. // 10:57 AM

Yesterday was really a terrible day. Heard some news from Janise; but I was too sick to feel it coming. Today, woke up feeling much better. And it just suddenly hit me. Hard.

I don't know how to describe the feelings I have now. It's beyond what words can convey. They mean a lot to me; and I don't want us to part. The past one year wasn't long, nor was it a short one. Feelings developed while we went through so many things together, as a class. Orientation camp, common tests, promotional exams, PE, movies, etc etc. Those are memories that we made together.

Mdm Siti told me this before: In life, you would meet many people. Some just passes by, while some would leave footsteps in your heart.

I know this is part and parcel of life; and I should take things easy. But sometimes, it's hard to do it. I guess they belong to the latter group; for I know they are people that I would miss dearly.

Sometimes, it's hard to say "I'm okay"

iloveyou❤

Monday, October 25, 2010

// 9:09 PM

I hate partings. I really hate it.

iloveyou❤

Thursday, October 21, 2010

^^ // 10:35 PM

Today was plain AWESOME!:D

Caught Paranormal Activity 2 with Nicole, Audrey, Aijia and Janise today. The movie was damn wtf. LOL! The ending was like damn crappy and I wasted 100minutes of my life and S$6.50. LOL! But oh well, I like the company today though^^

Went to get KOI with Audrey and Aijia then train-ed home. Today was awesome cause I watched a movie, I bought macaroons, I ate the pasar malam chicken and sweet potato, and I finally made a decision!^^

So... I decided to take H3 Math. Had a long talk with my brother just now; and he helped me analysed the situation, placing both pros and cons side-by-side to help me make the decision. Well, honestly, I wanted so much to take on that subject. It's like.. I want to challenge myself, and see how far I can push myself; see where my limits are.

For the first time, I really want to do well in my studies and accomplish something. For the first time, I'm actually aiming to bag in all the As for my A'levels. I wish this passion for studies stays; and pushes me through.

I know taking on H3 Math might change things, and I might get more stressed up when I'm already stressed now. But somehow, there's this little girl in me that wants to fight; that wants to challenge herself.

I hope this is not a wrong decision. I hope I made the right choice(:

iloveyou❤

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

WOOTS // 10:13 PM

Today was awesome!(:

Met up with Love and Aaron at Jurong Point, and had Pepper Lunch for lunch!:D Love had to go back school for sexuality talk so we trained to dover after lunch): Aaron and I continued the train ride and train-ed to Commonwealth to meet up with Benjie(: Headed to Bugis, and went to get KOI!:D

Went shopping after getting KOI till about 5pm, then headed back home. Benjie went home while Aaron and I went to get chicken and sweet potato from the pasar malam at Tiong. It's been a year since there was pasar malam at Tiong! Heehee. Went to get our all-time-favourite chicken and sweet potato!^^ Awesome!:D Heehee. And that settles my dinner for today!

Today was great!:D Too bad Love couldn't join us longer!): But it's okay, let's meet up soonnnnn!! *hearts*

And oh! I forgot to mention, I GOT MACAROONS FROM BAKERZIN TODAY!:D And Aaron tried it for the first time of his life today too. Hahahah!! Awesome day, I wished it was longer!

iloveyou❤

H3? H3. // 11:26 AM

One and a half hour break seems exceptionally long these days. I want school to end quickly!):

Okay.. I seem to be deluding myself. I wanna take H3 Math. But.... Sigh.

iloveyou❤

// 12:13 AM

^^
Okay. I actually completed the Biology Tutorial in like... 30minutes. Like, wow! I can't believe it. Hahah. I was still happily doing my work for once(: Therefore, I shall conclude that being happy means better efficiency at work. Lol. Okay, weird logic. Hahah!

Enough of craps; time for me to sleep so that I can enjoy myself tomorrow^^
Pasar Malam, here I come!!:D

iloveyou❤

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

// 11:15 PM

HELLO!!:D

I'm happy today!!^^ Was intending to start on my meiosis tutorial at 8.30pm, but I ended up chatting with Aaron on MSN until now, which is like 3 hours later. And the best thing is, the tutorial is still untouched. LOL! But nvm, it was so much fun chatting with him and Hoiching!!:D Woohoo!:D

Okay, time to do meiosis tutorial alr(:

And oh! I CAN'T WAIT FOR SCHOOL TO BE OVER TOMORROW!!:D

P.S. Stalker, I know you're reading this. LOL! POTENTIAL UNDERGROUND RELATIONSHIP PARTY!^^

iloveyou❤

Monday, October 18, 2010

Gahhhhhhhhh): // 8:57 PM

Seems like I'm having one of those PMSes again. Like.. AGAIN -.-"

Damn, I seriously don't know what's wrong with me these days. Either the weather is causing some weird chemical reactions in my brain, or that the PW Oral Presentation stuffs are getting on my nerves, or that.. Its just one of those days. Dammit, I hate this):

I can't believe I actually spent an hour PRACTICING Oral Presentation for tomorrow's rehearsal. Like.. omg. I think something is seriously wrong with me. I&R is due this week; and Biology Meiosis Tutorial is due on Thursday. But I haven't started on either one, and I'm not intending to do so today.

Today's training totally drained out all of my energy, and I totally could just fall asleep after lying on my bed for 3 minutes. Sigh. But it's a good thing, though. I think today's training was fun and fruitful(:

Dang. Did I just contradict myself? Gosh. I think it's time for me to go to dreamland.

For the first time in my life, I feel like sleeping my life away. Just like that.

So.. it ain't your birthday today. It just seems like I know nothing about you.

iloveyou❤

// 12:02 AM

Happy Birthday, My lovely DAUGHTER!:D

and Happy Birthday... to you(:

iloveyou❤

Saturday, October 16, 2010

// 11:27 PM

And oh! I forgot to mention, but I seriously can't wait for next Saturday to arrive! Gonna go back Secondary School with my fellow team mates for Table Tennis Training! Ages since we last went back! :D

iloveyou❤

abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz // 11:15 PM

!@#$%^&*()

Okay, I'm feeling so irritated now. Internet access at home is being excessively slow; and adding up to the fact that the weather is so freaking warm, I'm officially feeling irritated. Argh. And on top of that, my PW mates seriously don't know the meaning behind deadlines -.-" Damn. I seriously feel like screaming right now. Zzz.

Okay, putting those stuffs aside.. Today was...

!@#$%^&*() again -.-" Headache seriously didn't wear off after yesterday's nap + turning in early + taking the medicine. Dang. But on a happier note, I still managed to pack my desk somehow, and caught a few episodes of drama. But I'm basically slacking my day away. Sigh. How I wish 10th November arrives right in front of me, like now. I want school to be over):

I gave up trying.

iloveyou❤

Friday, October 15, 2010

我和你的距离...很远. 很远 // 11:43 PM

So... I managed to survive this whole week without looking at you.
I gave up hoping; I gave up searching.

But today, I couldn't help but searched. And all that I got was just plain emptiness in my heart.

iloveyou❤

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Results // 11:14 AM

Hello(:
I'm in the computer lab right now accompanying Yuan Ning to do up her powerpoin slides(: Decided to update my blog a little; since there's this stalker that kept asking me to update also. Hahah.
Alright. Today, we got back all of our results for the promotional examinations already. In summary:

Mathematics- 82 (A)
Chemistry- 69.1 (B)
Chinese- 70 (A)
Geography- 71.4 (A)
General Paper- 47.5 (E)
Biology- 65.4 (B)

These are just purely the promo papers results. Well, overall, I'm glad. But I still think I can go better. Biology was quite disappointing; cause paper 2 pulled me down a lot. Told myself that I shouldn't expect much; for I didn't put in much effort also. But still.. GP was nothing but a disappointment. Though I passed according to the new grading system, it didn't pass the passing grade in my heart.

But it's okay. A'levels is all that matters anyway. We shall work harder to clinch those A's in year 2(:
To those that didn't do as well for this promos like me, don't lose faith! You can still do it. Work harder in the future! We shall sprint hand in hand; side by side, to our ultimate goal together^^

iloveyou❤

Friday, October 8, 2010

// 11:58 PM

Today was awesomely great(: Overall, I mean.

Started the day with GP lessons. Was pretty anxious over getting back the GP results. But Ms Yap said that they have yet to finish marking so they'd return us the papers next week. I'm glad to a certain extent; for I know the GP results would be nothing more but a disappointment. But oh well.. Watched "The Island" during GP lesson today while Ms Yap went to mark the promotional examination papers.

After GP, it was Chemistry. To my surprise, I managed to pass paper 1 with 25/40!^^ I'm glad. I really am. I totally didn't expect a pass for my paper and I did in the end! The unexpected always comes with extreme feelings(: Scored 58/80 for my paper 2; which meant a 69.17% for my overall promo paper. Missed my "A" grade by a very tiny bit. But I'm glad the overall marks I get for Chemistry for the whole of year 1 still remains an "A" :D

After Chemistry, had a half-an-hour Chinese lesson before we were let off for lunch break due to the workshops today. The workshops today were pretty much mundane and boring; but I'm glad I managed to survive the whole 4 hours of programme(:

Headed to Jurong Point with Yuan Ning then train-ed to Clementi to meet up with Aaron. Waited for love to arrive; then headed to a nearby place for dinner. After dinner, we went to West Coast Plaza and chatted at Coffee Bean^^

The dinner was great, the chit-chat session was awesome, the company was fabulous!:D I really love the company of love and Aaron. It totally just brightens up my day(: Previously before I met them, I was really emo over some matters. But after meeting up with them, it's like.. I can just put all these useless thoughts aside and be happy. I'm really really REALLY glad to have them as my BFFs!:D

Enjoyed myself ALOT today; and I can't wait for the outing tomorrow already!:D

Btw, Janise, I really wasn't upset with you. Serious! Just didn't know how to put some matters across to you. As in.. I don't know how to tell you what made me emo. So yeah..

It seems rejected; it seems un-reciprocated. Gonna keep my feelings aside; before it's all too late.

iloveyou❤

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Proper post(: // 10:42 PM

Hello.

I've posted in school today; when I wasn't in the best of mood. Well, not saying that I am in a better one right now, but I'm here for a proper post for today.

Prepared for school with an uneasy heart. Today's the day to get back some of my promotional examinations results. For this promos; I wouldn't say I gave off my best, nor would I say I didn't try. Let's just put it this way... I didn't push myself beyond what I'm capable of. Perhaps it hadn't hit me, that I should always cherish all the opportunities in front of me. Yet.

Well, got back Chinese results during Lecture period today. First result that I've gotten back today; 114/160- which is 71.25%. I'm glad that I maintained my A. It really came unexpected cause I thought I really didn't do well for my paper 1. Thankfully, I did moderately well for both papers and got an A in the end(:

Math Tutorial was next on the list; I was really dragging my feet to class. My heart was really thumping while waiting for Mr Tan to give us back our papers. I seriously hate the feeling of waiting to get back our results. But well, I'm glad I managed to score 82/100 in the end^^ I was seriously taken aback when Mr Tan announced that I was the first in class. Because Jiwon has always been the one topping for all the class tests and lectures tests. So, I'm glad(:

After getting back the results of Chinese and Math, we had to attend a workshop. Was having a bad PMS which I haven't been having in a long time. Was really dreading the workshop for it lasts for 4 hours. But surprisingly, it turned out really well(:

The speaker was good. Entertaining, experienced, interactive. You name it, he got it. I'm glad our class got that speaker(: At the end of the session, one of his stories really struck me. The story revolved around the line whereby a word of affirmation could really change things and change the people around you.

Kinda teared a little at the end of the story :/ Well, it certainly made me realise the importance of cherishing the people around me; especially my loved ones(: I really have a strong urge to write little notes to the beloved people around me now(:

Anyway, here's the story: (rough one, cause I can't really remember the exact details :x)

A school teacher had this idea of wanting to thank his students on a very special day. Hence, he decided to prepare ribbons for his students, in which the phrase "Who am I, makes a difference" was written on it. The teacher then asked each student out to the front and thanked the student personally, and then putting on the ribbon on them and also, giving them 3 more ribbons. He then began: "The objective of this is to pass on a word of affirmation to the people around you, whom you're thankful for. So, pass the ribbons on"

A student then went to thank a special teacher of his, whom had taught him valuable lessons and skills. He pinned the ribbon on his teacher, and then passed him the other 2 ribbons and asked him to pass it on. The teacher then decided to give the ribbon to his supervisor, who was well know for his grouchy attitude. His supervisor was taken aback, but accepted the offer nonetheless.

On his way home, he thought about who should he give for the last ribbon. And all these while, the only person that came to his mind, was his son. Therefore, he headed back home and told his son: "Son, you know what? One of my employees suddenly came and thanked me this afternoon and even gave me a ribbon. He told me to pass this ribbon on; giving it to a person whom I'm thankful for. And the only person that came to my mind was you, son. I just want to tell you, I love you."

Upon hearing this, the son cried uncontrollably. Within his cries, you could barely make out the words that he was trying so hard to say. He said: "Daddy, thank you. You know what? Since Mummy's death, I felt so lonely and I felt that daddy didn't love me. And tonight, after you go to bed, I was preparing to commit suicide. I even prepared a letter for you." Hearing this, the father went up to his room and found the letter. The letter was filled with anguish, sadness, etc.

This ribbon, these words of affirmation; saved the life of his son.

Well, I know I'm missing quite a number of details, but I think the rough idea is there. Lol. I was really touched by this story. And I still am.

I don't know what to feel anymore. It's like.. My feelings are numbed, my heart is cold, I can't feel anything anymore.

iloveyou❤

// 12:56 PM

Hello, I'm in school right now. Got back Chinese and Math results; results were pretty acceptable. And I ought to be happy right now; but I don't know why I'm feeling otherwise now. Gahhhhh... Must be one of those PMSes again which I haven't been having in a long time.
Just let me pass through today.

I don't know what to feel anymore.

iloveyou❤

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

AWESOME DAY:D // 11:33 PM

Happy 25th Wedding Anniversary, Mummy and Daddy!!❤

Didn't turn up for the all girls camp today as I woke up with a terrible headache and a slight fever. As much as I didn't want to turn up for camp, I didn't want to fall sick either): Went back to sleep after eating medicine and woke up at 11plus. Headache didn't go away and fever didn't subside):

Thankfully, by like 2 plus in the afternoon, my headache went away and my fever subsided(: Spent the whole day at home today watching videos and sleeping. Lol. Today's the silver year of my parents' wedding anniversary; so the whole family headed out to eat(:

Came home from dinner and watched videos again. Love msg-ed me using Aaron's phone and told me they were near my house! So went down to meet them(: Love, Aaron, Lawrence and Bryan were there^^ Slacked and chilled out at the playground near my place. Had a lot of fun, laughed a lot too!:D I miss the old times when we would always hang out after school like this!

Headed to Tiong to get Coffee Bean then we went home(: Awesome day today; I can't wait for Friday to come and I can meet my loves again!:D Hopefully my parents would allow the stayover!!^^

On a sad note; there's school tomorrow and we'd be getting back our Chinese and Math papers): I seriously don't want to face the results tomorrow. Moreover, we still have the sexuality talk till 5pm tomorrow):

It's fabulous when you know you have that bunch of awesome friends with you^^

iloveyou❤

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Post-Promotional Exam Camp // 8:58 PM

The all girls camp today was seriously a waste of time.

Putting aside the fact that the skipping segment was surprisingly okay ~~(cause we didn't have to skip as individuals)~~, we had physical training (wth?), inspiring talk, and 2 hours of taekwondo. Taekwondo was okay actually; but the session was seriously too long and boring. Inspiring talk was.. Ahhhhh.. Makes me wanna sleep :/

Overall; I just wasted my whole day in school doing meaningless stuffs, when I could actually be at home spamming videos -.-" Gahhhh.. I really feel like ponning tomorrow's second part of the camp. Plus, tomorrow's itinerary is even more zzz~ Workshop for the WHOLE day. Gahhhh.. Can die):

It's saddening cause it seems as if I'm the only one who felt it, I'm the only one who cared, I'm the only one that's making the effort to change things.

iloveyou❤

Monday, October 4, 2010

END OF PROMOS // 11:30 PM

TODAY MARKS THE END OF THE PROMOTIONAL EXAMINATIONS!!:D

Woohoo! I feel DAMN happy today!!:D Biology Paper 1 was surprisingly okay; while paper 2 was.. moderate? I don't know. Couldn't answer some of the questions. But oh well.. IT'S THE END OF THE FREAKING PROMOS!!:D Heehee!

Went Jurong Point for lunch with JJJACY clique!(: Lunch-ed at Lai Lai~ (Not Qu Qu; omg wth) Heh. Jasmine, Janise and I bought kites today!!:D Headed to Marina Barrage for kite flying. My kite flying skills damn CMI!): Couldn't get my kite to fly without the help of Jasmine. Hahah.

Played frisbee too!:D Went Marina Square for dinner after flying kite^^ Dined at Cafe Cartel; ohmygoodness, I almost died from the serving. Came home and felt superr tired! Didn't really feel like going for the ALL GIRLS CAMP tomorrow actually. But then.. Sigh.

Dl-ed like 40 videos in total today! Like wah, I can't believe it too. LOL! And I managed to transfer them into my itouch too! Heh.

Okay, gonna lie on my bed and watch the videos comfortably alr!(:

I AM A HAPPY GIRL TODAYYYY!!!^^

iloveyou❤

Last paper for promos tomorrow! // 12:07 AM

Death time in 8 hours; but here I am still blogging.

Well, I know I'm gonna flunk the Biology papers tomorrow already. Mugged through the WHOLE day cause I spent the past 3 days slacking off and going out :/ Well.. Retribution, I guess. Didn't put in enough efforts; so I shouldn't expect much either. Just hope that whatever I mugged through today (the whole 8 hours of the day), would be somehow tested tomorrow. Luckily, the first paper is paper 1. So it can kind of serve as a revision. Well, I'm just praying hard that I don't die at paper 1 like how I did for Chemistry paper 1.

On a happier note; I'm going kite flying and catching a movie with JJJACY clique tomorrow!:D I just can't wait for promos to be officially over man. I might even go bonkers and just tear away all my notes tomorrow xD But nah, I won't. I'm not that crazy to that extent, lah huh. Hahah.

Alright, enough of rumblings. Time to turn in and fight my last battle with the seemingly harmless stack of papers tomorrow(:

And oh! That stupid pig kept tempting me to watch the performances of BEAST and SHINee while I was mugging for tomorrow's paper): And in the end, I still took time off and watch BEAST's performance :/ Tsk. The temptations are just too tempting! ):

iloveyou❤

Saturday, October 2, 2010

:D // 2:23 PM

HELLO!:D

Woke up at 12plus today. Freaking late! Didn't have appetite for lunch so ate like half a packet of chicken rice only. Have been replaying the MV and comeback stage of Breath by BEAST since I woke up!! It's seriously a superr awesome song :D

The song is good, the dance is nice, the lyrics is relatively easy to learn. Hence, it shall be my next song to learn after the freaking promos is over :D Seriously can't wait for the song to be available in KBOX!!^^ Then can sing and dance to it with Aaron and Love!! Hahah!:D

Alright, enough of spazz-ing over kpop(: Gonna start mugging for Biology paper on Monday alr!:D

But on a sadder note, Aaron told me that the Nori F phone might not be out in Singapore!! D: Damn. I really really really REALLY want that phone! It's like freaking nice can!):

But still, I'm a happy girl today(:

Heh. So... our telepathy didn't wear off all these while(: I'm glad!^^ Heehee!

iloveyou❤

NORIIIII~~ // 2:31 AM

I want this phone badly!!D:

iloveyou❤

// 2:16 AM

And oh, did I mention? I told my loves something about me today^^

iloveyou❤

Great dayyyyyy^^ // 1:59 AM

Today was AWESOME!:D Okay, yesterday; I meant.

Love came over in the afternoon cause she pon-ed her course and wanted to slack over at my place(: Chatted and spazz-ed over kpop! Aaron came over shortly after too^^ Love and Aaron was being awesomely high and funny! Had a really really good time!:D

Cabbed to Chinatown at around 4plus; then headed for KOI! My all-time favourite^^ Heehee. Then went KFC and had a light meal and then went for KDinner. KBOX was awesome! Total spammage of Korean songs. Heh. And all of our voices were damn cmi today. No idea why. Hahah! But we still enjoyed ourselves! :D

Walked over to Clarke Quay and chatted at the riverside. Awesome feeling; I hadn't experienced it in a long time already. Left Clarke Quay at around 11pm. Today was awesome! Had a really really good time :D Wished we didn't have to go home; wished we could have a stayover at Aaron's place):

Anyway, I just finished watching the Music Bank performances!:D I think Kpop is still the BEST!:D Heehee!^^ Alright; time to get started with bio(:

Actually, I was quite skeptical on whether our friendship was that strong :/ But today; it totally proved me wrong(: I love you guys; alot, alot :D

iloveyou❤

Friday, October 1, 2010

// 1:17 AM

I wanted so much to start work; but I really can't find my motivation):

Help me, anyone?

Btw, this is a new song by Beast. Awesome song!^^ Yoseob sure can sing! *hearts*

iloveyou❤

Yet-another-slack-day // 12:50 AM

Dang.

Wasted the whole of today slacking and watching videos. I know I ought to be studying for my last paper on Monday, but I'm really lacking the motivation): Told myself to start work at 11pm, but here I am, almost 2 hours later, still slacking. Awesome, ain't it? :/ Gahhhh... I need my study mood back, yet again):

On a happier note, I'm finally meeting Love and Aaron tomorrow! ❤ Gonna have dinner and then head for KBOX :D I predict a great night ahead!^^

So, I shall be a good girl and use this as my motivation; and start work already(:

-peaceout-

iloveyou❤

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Chemistry Paper // 8:22 PM

Today's Chemistry paper was... half GG-fied. Paper 2 was pretty much manageable; whilst Paper 1 was totally a killer. 10 minutes left and I have yet to complete the paper and shaded the OTAS. Managed to fill in all the answers somehow, though. I swear the papers today totally killed all my brain cells.

After the papers went Jurong Point for lunch with Janise, Audrey, Yuan Ning, Jasmine and Aijia!^^ Lunch-ed at Pepper Lunch (with much difficulty cause Jas was totally making me laugh through the meal), then caught Devil!(: It's a pity Yuan Ning couldn't join us!):

Devil is a pretty awesome movie(: Perhaps it's also due to the fact that I haven't caught a movie in I-don't-know-how-many-gazillion-years, but I guess the movie is still worth the catch^^ The twist is awesome! Though I felt really tired after the movie cause I was quite scared xD Jasmine was teasing me for covering my face with my bag throughout the movie! LOL.

Well, with the last paper for this week down, I feel pretty much relieved. It's as though promos are over; when I jolly well know that it's just the start of a torturous weekend ahead): But well, I'll persevere, I'll push through, I'll endure.

Just.. 5 more days to go!(:

And oh, I'm soooooo gonna slack my ass off today before I start mugging for Biology for the next 4 days. Hah. And did I mention? Today's movie totally made me crave for a movie marathon!

iloveyou❤

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Geography Paper // 6:49 PM

Gosh. Just woke up from a 4 hour nap. Overslept by like 2 hours. Dangggg. I think it's gonna be another sleepless night again. Gonna start mugging for Chemistry soon!

Today's Geography paper was pretty much alright. Essay was managable; but I totally died at the DRQs. But oh well.. Hopefully tomorrow's Chemistry paper would be alright!

On a side note, I'm really glad that tomorrow's the last paper for this week! After tomorrow's paper, I'd only one more paper to go before the end of promos!^^

What a joke. So that's how much things have changed. Taken aback; accepted reality; placed them behind. I've learnt to accept things as it is; and not dwell on it anymore.

iloveyou❤

// 1:18 AM

I miraculously managed to mug finished the last 2 sets of Geography notes and read through the other 2 not so important notes. Well, just hopefully, I'll still be able to remember all the details when I wake up tommorow.

Daddy's heading to Vietnam tomorrow; so I gotta head to school by public transport. Quite a relief, actually. Cause I'd have to wake up earlier and can study on the bus tomorrow.

Alright, enough of craps. Time to sleep! Waking up in 4.5hours. Please wish me all the luck that you can!! Seriously in need of it):

iloveyou❤

Monday, September 27, 2010

// 11:41 PM

I think I'm really dead for Geography. Started studying too late :/

iloveyou❤

// 9:03 PM

Awesome shit. I don't have the mood to study for Geog. Half an hour passed and I'm still at page 4 of the first stack of notes. Awesome, no?Dang. Switched off my computer to minimise distractions. Gonna lock myself in my room and spam music and spam green tea and seriously mug for Geog paper alr. Surprisingly, I ain't feeling the need to mug for tomorrow's paper. Perhaps it's because I know perfectly well that it's a meant-to-be-screwed paper? Maybe, maybe. Alright, off to mug.

I like to use twitterific now(: likethesound^^

iloveyou❤

Math Paper // 7:20 PM

God.

Entered school today with an uneasy heart. Firstly, I'm afraid of taking the Math paper. Secondly, it's a 3 hour long paper and I'm not sure if I can complete the paper. Thirdly, I miraculously decided to tie my hair to school today :O Pre-examination madness? Perhaps. But I'm glad I received positive feedbacks. Hahah! xD Su kept saying that I look cute :/ When I obviously ain't. Lol. Anyway, the time to enter the exam hall came, and.....

The paper was... A killer. Putting aside the fact that I managed to complete the whole paper somehow (I seriously have got no idea how I managed to finish the paper), I'm not confident in clinching that A that I'm aiming for. Paper was pretty much tricky and requires much thought process.

But well, it's over and I gotta put it behind~ After the Math paper went Mac and had lunch with JJJACY clique(: Then bus-ed to Clementi with Janise and Audrey to get KOI! *hearts*

Cabbed back home cause I was feeling really tired and it was raining too. Came home and had a nap. Planned to wake up at 6pm, but I ended up sleeping till 7pm. Like gosh. And what's worse is that tomorrow's paper is Geography, which needs lots of memorising):

And I didn't sleep well at all!! Dreamt that I was stuck in a Math question and I was soooo nervous and scared cause I couldn't solve it. Woke up from my nap cause the time was up. And I was tearing when I woke up -.- Damn. What a nightmare.

Gahhhhhhhh~ Gotta start studying for Geography already):

iloveyou❤